是很忙, 还是在逃避吗？
我不是一个很会沟通的人，所以话题都很有限。。
我总有一条跨越不了的线，无法传达。。
或许你都不会懂我在想什么，或许我只是自作多情。
不是我不想继续，不过我真的很累了~
很累很累~~
我只是一个愚蠢的小孩。
你让我觉得你在逃避，让大家都不高兴，
那么我尽量不找你吧。。
我就只会愚蠢的方法了。。。
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Thought of life
After CNY~~
Life have not much different.
Watching movie, series, anime almost every single minute i am awake.
Making my eye tired and my brain saturated with non-useful information.
Maybe this is the last enjoyable holiday for my studies period.
Should i be doing some more meaningful things?
I always thinking of many things can be done and have to be done.
However things never works out like planned.
Sometimes i just felt like i avoiding and running away from the reality in life, by focusing on those thing that keep my mind away from it, acting like a nerd drowning into all these unreal things.
Scared of facing people, facing growing old, and facing the real world.
However, time never stop and life goes on.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Toward the future...
Doing something for my future. by time seem very packed.
Intern, report, part time. when i can really concentrate on my things.. ><~~ T.T
Friday, July 1, 2011
late in nite.
but still dun wanna go sleep
even though tomorrow still need to go work.
I dun wanna go work.. ><
but still have to~.
Felt the intern become tougher.
Work like a real engineer
Drawing of the real design
Everything need to be calculated..
Make me stress..
Another month is passed again.
Should i be glad?
but still got one and a half month a wait..
till the intern end..
Many things changes during this sem break,
or for me is intern..
1st time work as real engineer,
1st time go for part time,
1st time cook with friends,
1st time go paint wall,
maybe still got many 1st time that i cant remember.
Happy things happens alot,
can join with best friends every week.
talking to each other,
working together.
Some other things happen to my friend,
nothing i can do since it is personal,
somemore i never had any experience in it.
Love, what is it? 23 years without really over-concern about it,
although sometimes really hope got someone beside..
support me unconditionally,
give me warm,
Am i too steady not needing it?
Heart been touched, but body doesn't,
Where is the impulse of love, rushing toward it recklessly?
dun have enough faith on myslef or on others?
Maybe i just a coward.. that afraid of unknown...
always press down the reckless emotion,
taking up the phone and then put it down.
starting a conversation but failed to continued it.
Make me look really weak~~
I can just become a good man,
happy for ur happiness,
sad for ur sadness,
help unconditionally,
without let u notice....... but not like a stalker.. X(
although i read some books that say
let people know when u treat people good.
but still the same me after so long..
What else can i do?
Hope for someone would come for me? that wouldn't happen,
Hope for someone appear and give a hyper impact on me,
pushing me out? waiting for more 23 years...
Or just happen to become alone? Not the best way to live ever.
Tomorrow work would be more tougher without enough sleep....
i am not EMO!!!!!!!! just thinking more lately.. ^^ as a living people..
~looking at ur smiley face make my world better~
but still dun wanna go sleep
even though tomorrow still need to go work.
I dun wanna go work.. ><
but still have to~.
Felt the intern become tougher.
Work like a real engineer
Drawing of the real design
Everything need to be calculated..
Make me stress..
Another month is passed again.
Should i be glad?
but still got one and a half month a wait..
till the intern end..
Many things changes during this sem break,
or for me is intern..
1st time work as real engineer,
1st time go for part time,
1st time cook with friends,
1st time go paint wall,
maybe still got many 1st time that i cant remember.
Happy things happens alot,
can join with best friends every week.
talking to each other,
working together.
Some other things happen to my friend,
nothing i can do since it is personal,
somemore i never had any experience in it.
Love, what is it? 23 years without really over-concern about it,
although sometimes really hope got someone beside..
support me unconditionally,
give me warm,
Am i too steady not needing it?
Heart been touched, but body doesn't,
Where is the impulse of love, rushing toward it recklessly?
dun have enough faith on myslef or on others?
Maybe i just a coward.. that afraid of unknown...
always press down the reckless emotion,
taking up the phone and then put it down.
starting a conversation but failed to continued it.
Make me look really weak~~
I can just become a good man,
happy for ur happiness,
sad for ur sadness,
help unconditionally,
without let u notice....... but not like a stalker.. X(
although i read some books that say
let people know when u treat people good.
but still the same me after so long..
What else can i do?
Hope for someone would come for me? that wouldn't happen,
Hope for someone appear and give a hyper impact on me,
pushing me out? waiting for more 23 years...
Or just happen to become alone? Not the best way to live ever.
Tomorrow work would be more tougher without enough sleep....
i am not EMO!!!!!!!! just thinking more lately.. ^^ as a living people..
~looking at ur smiley face make my world better~
Saturday, May 28, 2011
intern- ing days~~
Another long period didnt write blog..
Just dun have any mood on it..
life is become more and more messy now..
after the ending of the 3rd year study
it is time for the internship.
Many problem have been pop out no where for the internship.
but finally i still a place for it.
the internship is at Shah Alam and i am staying at PJ currently.
means that i have to take more than half hour to reach there by car.
that one need to thanks my coursemate.. XD
Still cannot find back the blogging mode..
then that all for now.. haha
Wish all my friends.. enjoy this long long holiday lar..
for those in intern one.. add oil..
some of you have graduate dy.. really congratz to ur guys..
it is time to face the real world..
just do your best.. ^^
Just dun have any mood on it..
life is become more and more messy now..
after the ending of the 3rd year study
it is time for the internship.
Many problem have been pop out no where for the internship.
but finally i still a place for it.
the internship is at Shah Alam and i am staying at PJ currently.
means that i have to take more than half hour to reach there by car.
that one need to thanks my coursemate.. XD
Still cannot find back the blogging mode..
then that all for now.. haha
Wish all my friends.. enjoy this long long holiday lar..
for those in intern one.. add oil..
some of you have graduate dy.. really congratz to ur guys..
it is time to face the real world..
just do your best.. ^^
Monday, April 18, 2011
Good & Bad
Bad things always follows by good things.
This should be the best things about life.
But it also happen in vise-versa.
These type of things happens to me often.
Always make me feel miserable when somethings just pop out
When i feel very enjoy for my life.
Last week was a week that makes me really proud and happy.
I and my team spends almost 1 weeks of time everyday from morning till night
working on the prototype of machine in one of my subject.
My hand is full of small wounds due to those works.
The machine built is been exhibited in our department.
Since this is a subject (Industrial Project) of my course.
Where our machine will be marked by someone from SIRIM, Proton, and Motorola company.
And in the end, my team manage to get the 1st prize.
It was just a hamper. XD
But it is a long time since i have won anything. ^^
My Team Machine : Waste Sorting Machine.. XD
Then the next week is study week.
Playing, enjoying, with abit of happiness that left over from last week.
Until get some bad news about my internship.
GOT PROBLEM!!! Suddenly felt like drop from sky.
Hope it can be solved. If not need to find again.
Life is difficult. X(
Yesterday going to Klang to eat bak gut teh with a bunch of friends.
Some of them will be graduated. i will be missing them. ^^
1st time go Klang .. the food is not bad~~ not too expensive.. very full..
This should be the best things about life.
But it also happen in vise-versa.
These type of things happens to me often.
Always make me feel miserable when somethings just pop out
When i feel very enjoy for my life.
Last week was a week that makes me really proud and happy.
I and my team spends almost 1 weeks of time everyday from morning till night
working on the prototype of machine in one of my subject.
My hand is full of small wounds due to those works.
The machine built is been exhibited in our department.
Since this is a subject (Industrial Project) of my course.
Where our machine will be marked by someone from SIRIM, Proton, and Motorola company.
And in the end, my team manage to get the 1st prize.
It was just a hamper. XD
But it is a long time since i have won anything. ^^
My Team Machine : Waste Sorting Machine.. XD
Then the next week is study week.
Playing, enjoying, with abit of happiness that left over from last week.
Until get some bad news about my internship.
GOT PROBLEM!!! Suddenly felt like drop from sky.
Hope it can be solved. If not need to find again.
Life is difficult. X(
Yesterday going to Klang to eat bak gut teh with a bunch of friends.
Some of them will be graduated. i will be missing them. ^^
1st time go Klang .. the food is not bad~~ not too expensive.. very full..
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Friday, March 18, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Happy CNY~
Three weeks have passed since the last post..
New sem seem to be very free
however there is still plenty of homework need to do,
i havent settle down my mood for study or anything~~
so its been a rough time for me to push myself do things without any motivation...
The Chinese New Year is coming soon~~ ^^
not yet buy any new cloths~ no money since the ptptn not yet bank in..
anyway~~ still enjoy the holiday~~
although today i clean my house for whole day~
fighting with all the dust~~
playing with vacuum, never really use it before... hehe
So, i wish everyone Happy CNY~ and enjoy the holiday~ Xp
i think i drank 6 bottle of vitagen today~ 5 pineapple flavor & 1 orange flavor~
wakaka~~ nice nice nice~~ just abit small~~ X(
New sem seem to be very free
however there is still plenty of homework need to do,
i havent settle down my mood for study or anything~~
so its been a rough time for me to push myself do things without any motivation...
The Chinese New Year is coming soon~~ ^^
not yet buy any new cloths~ no money since the ptptn not yet bank in..
anyway~~ still enjoy the holiday~~
although today i clean my house for whole day~
fighting with all the dust~~
playing with vacuum, never really use it before... hehe
So, i wish everyone Happy CNY~ and enjoy the holiday~ Xp
i think i drank 6 bottle of vitagen today~ 5 pineapple flavor & 1 orange flavor~
wakaka~~ nice nice nice~~ just abit small~~ X(
Monday, January 10, 2011
Day 9
Life being abit loss controlled recently
maybe the holiday is too short?
still cannot adjust my life back into study
although the school have been start for a week.
9 days been passed for the new year.
but i still keep watching drama, anime, movie..
there are still important things need to be done
but i just delay it till the last minute
every time. Habit ? not a good one. Xp
My toe is being infected
really hurt for few days
after an hour of fighting with the wound
pinching all the pus out
pain like hell...... T.T
but starting to recover..
Now keep thinking my room is bad luck
been few times since i stay here last semester.
got anything can bring good luck such as charm?
just to keep me healthy....
Black pepper chicken chop from Wings cafe~
It is a birthday celebration of a friend~ ^^
maybe the holiday is too short?
still cannot adjust my life back into study
although the school have been start for a week.
9 days been passed for the new year.
but i still keep watching drama, anime, movie..
there are still important things need to be done
but i just delay it till the last minute
every time. Habit ? not a good one. Xp
My toe is being infected
really hurt for few days
after an hour of fighting with the wound
pinching all the pus out
pain like hell...... T.T
but starting to recover..
Now keep thinking my room is bad luck
been few times since i stay here last semester.
got anything can bring good luck such as charm?
just to keep me healthy....
Black pepper chicken chop from Wings cafe~
It is a birthday celebration of a friend~ ^^
Saturday, December 18, 2010
holiday
Holiday start for a week dy.
But i still stay at home most of the time.
went for badminton twice in the 1st week.
Suddenly felt like loving sports.
Should go for sports more if got chance.
Thanks for aileen for the outing.
If not, i dunno when i got chances to go to all those place.
My mum bought it from her hometown.
Heong peah.. meaning biscuit with fragrant?? haha
Ate few these days, really nice.
But i still stay at home most of the time.
went for badminton twice in the 1st week.
Suddenly felt like loving sports.
Should go for sports more if got chance.
Thanks for aileen for the outing.
If not, i dunno when i got chances to go to all those place.
My mum bought it from her hometown.
Heong peah.. meaning biscuit with fragrant?? haha
Ate few these days, really nice.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
yeah
Atlast, my exam week ends.
Although the last paper not very good,
due to the time constraint, cant finished it on time.
My exam this time is a mess,
since i am sick from the 1st paper until the 3rd paper,
actually i only got 4 paper.
So, i only in healthy condition during the last paper.
After the exam, i went out with my coursemates,
celebrating birthday of one of them,
and also the end of the exams.
This is what i ate when i healthy back.
Not bad, not really sweet.
Although the last paper not very good,
due to the time constraint, cant finished it on time.
My exam this time is a mess,
since i am sick from the 1st paper until the 3rd paper,
actually i only got 4 paper.
So, i only in healthy condition during the last paper.
After the exam, i went out with my coursemates,
celebrating birthday of one of them,
and also the end of the exams.
This is what i ate when i healthy back.
Not bad, not really sweet.
Monday, November 22, 2010
slow little snail
Write so many blog when exam coming near,
keep busy on other things so can have a reason to keep away from study,
study is totally not my strong point~
Study study study,
but i feel like a snail,
the road in front is endless,
and i am without leg,
slow little snail ~~ T.T
since i just come back to college,
yesterday when out to mid valley,
need to prepare food for the exam week.
Bought plenty of biscuits,
and a Chocolate Banana Cake from Secret Recipe，
Long time didnt eat cake, Xp
Enjoy it before suffering~
keep busy on other things so can have a reason to keep away from study,
study is totally not my strong point~
Study study study,
but i feel like a snail,
the road in front is endless,
and i am without leg,
slow little snail ~~ T.T
since i just come back to college,
yesterday when out to mid valley,
need to prepare food for the exam week.
Bought plenty of biscuits,
and a Chocolate Banana Cake from Secret Recipe，
Long time didnt eat cake, Xp
Enjoy it before suffering~
Saturday, November 20, 2010
PAINT!!!!!!
Another day~ Back to college, study week will end really soon, although my paper will only start on Friday~
My room is repaint during holiday, make it had a really strong smell~
When i come back, it is totally messed up, took me more than an hour to clean it up..
So totally no mood for study today, with the strong paint odor in the room attacking my smell sense. ~(x_x)~
So watching mtv i downloaded~ XD
Time flies, but still wasting time here..
I think i will get paint poison~~
My room is repaint during holiday, make it had a really strong smell~
When i come back, it is totally messed up, took me more than an hour to clean it up..
So totally no mood for study today, with the strong paint odor in the room attacking my smell sense. ~(x_x)~
So watching mtv i downloaded~ XD
Time flies, but still wasting time here..
I think i will get paint poison~~
Friday, November 19, 2010
Last day at home
After of two week staying at home in this study week, it will end really soon. Tomorrow will be back to KL where exams are waiting for me there.
I only went out twice for this two week, went to grocery near my house and cut my hair which is also near my house.
Passed everyday in front of my laptop, watching darma, anime, move and download plenty of mv plus abit study .. XD
Really will be rotten in home~
Exam~ not really in stress mode, although found out that many things need to memorize this semester. Felt saturated.
Cant sleep these few days, my brother play music with his mobile phone until he sleep, so i need to shut it down after he slept. Some more his respirator system not really good, keep snoring~~
my brain keep functioning when i lying on my bed~
thinking of useless thing most the time. But i got think of a nice story yesterday~
Need to write it down, seem like my memories not very good~
i always forgot story and ideas i have thought.
Saw someone using food in their blog~~ very nice..
Every food represent a little bit of happiness in our life~
This one "biscut kelapa", actually is coconut biscuit~
My mother bought it for me cause i keep saying nothing to bite in home during these holiday~
But, i only ate 2 pieces, keep busying in front of my laptop~XD
The exam week will start soon~ good luck to all my friends~ ^^
Jiayou~
I only went out twice for this two week, went to grocery near my house and cut my hair which is also near my house.
Passed everyday in front of my laptop, watching darma, anime, move and download plenty of mv plus abit study .. XD
Really will be rotten in home~
Exam~ not really in stress mode, although found out that many things need to memorize this semester. Felt saturated.
Cant sleep these few days, my brother play music with his mobile phone until he sleep, so i need to shut it down after he slept. Some more his respirator system not really good, keep snoring~~
my brain keep functioning when i lying on my bed~
thinking of useless thing most the time. But i got think of a nice story yesterday~
Need to write it down, seem like my memories not very good~
i always forgot story and ideas i have thought.
Saw someone using food in their blog~~ very nice..
Every food represent a little bit of happiness in our life~
This one "biscut kelapa", actually is coconut biscuit~
My mother bought it for me cause i keep saying nothing to bite in home during these holiday~
But, i only ate 2 pieces, keep busying in front of my laptop~XD
The exam week will start soon~ good luck to all my friends~ ^^
Jiayou~
Monday, November 15, 2010
读书期
3 个星期的读书期，
很快的就过了2个星期，
还剩下仅有的时间。
说真的，还没真正的开始读书，
第一个星期完全拿来浪费掉，
看戏，看戏，还是看戏。
第二个星期，回到家了，
享受下在家的感觉，
顺便有点想在家考虑下，
生活中的事情。
不过，在家的整个星期，
每天都对着电脑，
还是在那虚度着时光。
电脑里有 slide 也成了一个借口，
每天开着电脑，希望可以翻翻下，
不过好像还是一个借口，
slide 就没翻到，戏倒看了不少。
我的毅力到底去了哪里？
哈哈。。完全没头绪，
还是根本就不多？
过去用完了吗？
还剩下的一个星期，
要乖乖，不要飞那么快，
我会喘不过气的~~
要答应自己吗？
努力点，考好成绩吗？
哈哈。 答应自己的承诺要履行，
不然未来怎样承诺别人，
不过我总觉得考试成绩都不重要的，
没有点冲劲~~
或许想法错了？
应该考好点成绩，
这么小事都做不好，
将来怎么做大事呢？
头脑在乱转，
绞来绞去的。
突然想做个网页，
其实也一段时间了，
不过没主题，
要拿来做么呢？
赚钱，怎样哦~~？
教学，我会的东西不多呢？
故事，看我写就知没什么文法~
漫画，还没会画，画工不足~~
论坛，想试下，不过要很多时间管理~~
游戏，太复杂了，很多计算，一个人做不来~~
idea~~
网页平行世界~~
还在想着内容呢~~可以包括什么呢？
好像要有server~
用作database~~
弄到fb 酱又没把握~XD
还有什么特别的？
计划着一个网页~~ 不简单~~
没钱~ 最多只能做资料型的~~
要找免费的~~ ><~
总是在找借口~
很乱~很乱~~
考试期间就是乱乱的~
看了韩剧“我的女友是九尾狐”，
爱情故事~~感动的说~~ 加点点的搞笑~~
虽然觉得女主角有点怪怪~
好像不是很美~ XD
不过是久违的完美结局爱情故事~
不懂做么每次都要有人挂的~~
happy ending 难道不好吗~？
还有港剧蒲松龄，就有点悲哀，
差不多死完~
虽然男女主角在一起，不过是人鬼恋，
每天和鬼还有仙住在一起，
所以呢~~ 就写了聊斋咯~~
不懂什么是聊斋的问妈妈~~
港剧读心神探~
香港拍到最有feel的就是警匪片的拉~
还蛮好看的~讲点心理学，肢体语言等。
看过就算~ 没什么故事~
动画魔神装机，
以前玩game 是看过的，
觉得很帅~~
就找来看看~~ 完全的失望~
故事好烂~ 伤心~
动画钢之炼金术师，
有出过两版，
第一版的没什么记得，
不过新版的很好看，
跟完漫画的故事，一流~~
很好看~~
顺便回想下过去看过的日剧，
零秒出手~ buzzer beat~ 爱情故事，
看到电视有播，
再看还是超喜欢,
故事感动，画面很优美，
音乐也很配~ 有兴趣的看下~
我觉得真的很赞~
两个星期~~ = =~ 其实不只~
还有很多电影~XD
读书啊~~~！！！！
废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~
朋友们加油啦~~ 不要像我那么颓废~~
会死到很惨的哦~~
加油加油~~ GOGOGO~~
这个世界真美丽~~这里的空气阵清新~~
完全完全~~
很快的就过了2个星期，
还剩下仅有的时间。
说真的，还没真正的开始读书，
第一个星期完全拿来浪费掉，
看戏，看戏，还是看戏。
第二个星期，回到家了，
享受下在家的感觉，
顺便有点想在家考虑下，
生活中的事情。
不过，在家的整个星期，
每天都对着电脑，
还是在那虚度着时光。
电脑里有 slide 也成了一个借口，
每天开着电脑，希望可以翻翻下，
不过好像还是一个借口，
slide 就没翻到，戏倒看了不少。
我的毅力到底去了哪里？
哈哈。。完全没头绪，
还是根本就不多？
过去用完了吗？
还剩下的一个星期，
要乖乖，不要飞那么快，
我会喘不过气的~~
要答应自己吗？
努力点，考好成绩吗？
哈哈。 答应自己的承诺要履行，
不然未来怎样承诺别人，
不过我总觉得考试成绩都不重要的，
没有点冲劲~~
或许想法错了？
应该考好点成绩，
这么小事都做不好，
将来怎么做大事呢？
头脑在乱转，
绞来绞去的。
突然想做个网页，
其实也一段时间了，
不过没主题，
要拿来做么呢？
赚钱，怎样哦~~？
教学，我会的东西不多呢？
故事，看我写就知没什么文法~
漫画，还没会画，画工不足~~
论坛，想试下，不过要很多时间管理~~
游戏，太复杂了，很多计算，一个人做不来~~
idea~~
网页平行世界~~
还在想着内容呢~~可以包括什么呢？
好像要有server~
用作database~~
弄到fb 酱又没把握~XD
还有什么特别的？
计划着一个网页~~ 不简单~~
没钱~ 最多只能做资料型的~~
要找免费的~~ ><~
总是在找借口~
很乱~很乱~~
考试期间就是乱乱的~
看了韩剧“我的女友是九尾狐”，
爱情故事~~感动的说~~ 加点点的搞笑~~
虽然觉得女主角有点怪怪~
好像不是很美~ XD
不过是久违的完美结局爱情故事~
不懂做么每次都要有人挂的~~
happy ending 难道不好吗~？
还有港剧蒲松龄，就有点悲哀，
差不多死完~
虽然男女主角在一起，不过是人鬼恋，
每天和鬼还有仙住在一起，
所以呢~~ 就写了聊斋咯~~
不懂什么是聊斋的问妈妈~~
港剧读心神探~
香港拍到最有feel的就是警匪片的拉~
还蛮好看的~讲点心理学，肢体语言等。
看过就算~ 没什么故事~
动画魔神装机，
以前玩game 是看过的，
觉得很帅~~
就找来看看~~ 完全的失望~
故事好烂~ 伤心~
动画钢之炼金术师，
有出过两版，
第一版的没什么记得，
不过新版的很好看，
跟完漫画的故事，一流~~
很好看~~
顺便回想下过去看过的日剧，
零秒出手~ buzzer beat~ 爱情故事，
看到电视有播，
再看还是超喜欢,
故事感动，画面很优美，
音乐也很配~ 有兴趣的看下~
我觉得真的很赞~
两个星期~~ = =~ 其实不只~
还有很多电影~XD
读书啊~~~！！！！
废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~废人~
朋友们加油啦~~ 不要像我那么颓废~~
会死到很惨的哦~~
加油加油~~ GOGOGO~~
这个世界真美丽~~这里的空气阵清新~~
完全完全~~
Friday, October 29, 2010
三个月~ 遮眼的lokgot~~
久违三个月的部落各，
好像没写下去的冲动。
生命中有很多的阶段，
都会面对各种的情况，
而从中学习和成长着，
正是我们短暂的人生。
度过了的漫漫岁月中，
生活的价值不断改变，
人生观也随之而变化，
究竟进化或是退化呢？
每天面对的种种艰难，
读书功课中无比压力,
人际关系内复杂难测,
物质金钱享受的平衡，
慢慢的身体懒散下来，
头脑也好像迟钝不少，
长期不断累积的疲劳，
总觉得没有休息放松，
考虑的变得太多太多，
失去控制的越见疯狂,
生活难道那么的繁重？
没目标的生活很无趣，
看着朋友向目标出发，
自己却没迈进的头绪，
在原地傻傻得发呆着，
或是在没尽头的海中，
毫无方向的随波漂流，
时间无声无息无情的，
不懈停止的擦身而过。
曾经朋友说我无所求，
不愿与别人争名斗利，
不愿意得罪伤害他人，
看得开放得下拋得远，
但现在的我还做到吗？
无所求为没目标大志，
不愿争名斗利为无能，
不愿得罪伤害为怕事，
看开放下为害怕反抗。
还能看得开放得下吗？
说到底我还只是俗人，
都是会为烦恼而烦恼，
究竟能以什么做目标？
究竟能以哪里为方向？
究竟能为谁为何而求？
愈来愈不想理会一切，
横眉俗世人们的眼光，
排除存有威胁的敌人，
为了争取自己需要的，
掌握得到自己想要的。
难道我不能更加强大？
对自己仅有的坚持呢？
坚持到底那股毅力呢？
面对失败那点勇气呢？
拿起使命那份责任呢？
就连定下小小目标的，
少少的决心都没有吗？
无求无尘无垢无心哀~
眼睛被遮着看不到拉~
好像没写下去的冲动。
生命中有很多的阶段，
都会面对各种的情况，
而从中学习和成长着，
正是我们短暂的人生。
度过了的漫漫岁月中，
生活的价值不断改变，
人生观也随之而变化，
究竟进化或是退化呢？
每天面对的种种艰难，
读书功课中无比压力,
人际关系内复杂难测,
物质金钱享受的平衡，
慢慢的身体懒散下来，
头脑也好像迟钝不少，
长期不断累积的疲劳，
总觉得没有休息放松，
考虑的变得太多太多，
失去控制的越见疯狂,
生活难道那么的繁重？
没目标的生活很无趣，
看着朋友向目标出发，
自己却没迈进的头绪，
在原地傻傻得发呆着，
或是在没尽头的海中，
毫无方向的随波漂流，
时间无声无息无情的，
不懈停止的擦身而过。
曾经朋友说我无所求，
不愿与别人争名斗利，
不愿意得罪伤害他人，
看得开放得下拋得远，
但现在的我还做到吗？
无所求为没目标大志，
不愿争名斗利为无能，
不愿得罪伤害为怕事，
看开放下为害怕反抗。
还能看得开放得下吗？
说到底我还只是俗人，
都是会为烦恼而烦恼，
究竟能以什么做目标？
究竟能以哪里为方向？
究竟能为谁为何而求？
愈来愈不想理会一切，
横眉俗世人们的眼光，
排除存有威胁的敌人，
为了争取自己需要的，
掌握得到自己想要的。
难道我不能更加强大？
对自己仅有的坚持呢？
坚持到底那股毅力呢？
面对失败那点勇气呢？
拿起使命那份责任呢？
就连定下小小目标的，
少少的决心都没有吗？
无求无尘无垢无心哀~
眼睛被遮着看不到拉~
Friday, August 6, 2010
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