Toward the future...

Doing something for my future. by time seem very packed.

Intern, report, part time. when i can really concentrate on my things.. ><~~ T.T

late in nite.
but still dun wanna go sleep
even though tomorrow still need to go work.
I dun wanna go work.. ><
but still have to~.

Felt the intern become tougher.
Work like a real engineer
Drawing of the real design
Everything need to be calculated..
Make me stress..

Another month is passed again.
Should i be glad?
but still got one and a half month a wait..
till the intern end..

Many things changes during this sem break,
or for me is intern..
1st time work as real engineer,
1st time go for part time,
1st time cook with friends,
1st time go paint wall,
maybe still got many 1st time that i cant remember.

Happy things happens alot,
can join with best friends every week.
talking to each other,
working together.

Some other things happen to my friend,
nothing i can do since it is personal,
somemore i never had any experience in it.
Love, what is it? 23 years without really over-concern about it,
although sometimes really hope got someone beside..
support me unconditionally,
give me warm,
Am i too steady not needing it?
Heart been touched, but body doesn't,
Where is the impulse of love, rushing toward it recklessly?
dun have enough faith on myslef or on others?

Maybe i just a coward.. that afraid of unknown...
always press down the reckless emotion,
taking up the phone and then put it down.
starting a conversation but failed to continued it.
Make me look really weak~~
I can just become a good man,
happy for ur happiness,
sad for ur sadness,
help unconditionally,
without let u notice....... but not like a stalker.. X(
although i read some books that say
let people know when u treat people good.
but still the same me after so long..

What else can i do?
Hope for someone would come for me? that wouldn't happen,
Hope for someone appear and give a hyper impact on me,
pushing me out? waiting for more 23 years...
Or just happen to become alone? Not the best way to live ever.

Tomorrow work would be more tougher without enough sleep....
i am not EMO!!!!!!!! just thinking more lately.. ^^ as a living people..
~looking at ur smiley face make my world better~